Old Beginnings.

I'm really happy this year is about to end. I never thought it would be this crappy.You usually think positive about whats about to happen that year your getting in to. As the 1st days progressed within this year I became more disappointed. I thought it would be one for the books.

WOW! I can't believe a few weeks after the new year I would be single. I thought I wouldn't survive it because he was the first boy I actually told my parents about. It took me a few months to actually and truly move on. In order for me to move on I needed to boost my confidence by playing with some one's emotions which I thought I was really fucked up on my part. Realized I was wrong for using him and I actually lose some one who is a good listener and a very special person. Well life goes on.

After that had no date for prom both of the guys I liked were gone and needed to go on the last resort ETHAN. He was my date but I kinda felt awkward going with him to prom but oh well .As months progress found out that I couldn't graduate needed to do all my freshmen credits. Cried my ass off. Fucking Las Vegas. Let us thank my parents for making me feel good and actually gave me a ticket and actually visit the family and the friends back home.

Philippines was the best gift and the best vacation that my parents ever gave me even though it wasn't really worth it for them to give me that ticket. Had fun back home. Got drunk did the illegal and did more bad things. Philippines was where I took of some of the bad air out. People where just so different when I went back home. My brothers were more caring and we actually got drunk together, Those days that I was back home was the highlight of my year.

Went back to the States. Drove 2 days going to Chicago and 2 days going back to Vegas. School started. People thought I repeated school but you know FUCK THEM. You go to school for you not for them. OH WELL! As life goes on. Became closer to a few, lost connection with some and gained some more friends. As the school year progressed became closer to Febby. Told her all my shit. Had a crush on someone I know I can't have a crush on. Told my friend but then again people we need to understand some other people feel the need to tell everything on their boyfriend which I have to understand and I made a mistake by telling her. Now I know who are your real friends and who thinks they are the shit.

Now I'm just really happy that this year is about to end. Next year my new years resolution is to of course get smaller aside from that shallow resolution my other resolution is to find friends who are actually worth it and take care of the people who I love the most. Fuck drama fuck people who think they are just cool because of something people think is cool or because they are somewhere your not.

This year has been so intense. Lost some boys. Regretted a few. Thankful for blessings that came from above. Of course try to make next year the bombs of the bombs year ever. Take advantage of the opportunity that is out there. Hopefully no more drama but oh well I guess we just have to find out next year.





FUDGE i need to get my permit!

omg

Oh my fricking crap its almost christmas... haven't even started christmas shopping I feel like I'm about to suffer from stress shopping. Its sooo bad imma get stuck buying what's left. Ekkk. I'm so excited for christmas break all imma go is just chill with the most important people in the world which are the people I nmost truly trust...



Ah imma eat laters

ok.

So today I needed to go to the dentist. Daym that guy who did some fillings for me was from jersey im like wow i hella feel special.

Anyways today was like any ordinary day.
Christmas is in hmm lets see 13 days wow!

ok so im only asking for a one thing from santa:
1. IPOD NANO.

but theirs more for the parenotals:
1. guitar hero 3!
2. ddr.

see im not asking for much this christmas ive been a good child this year.

Well its sisters birthday this Saturday. Dang i never really realized that were all getting old ate is turning 28 my brothers are like 26 and 25 and i am 18 wow.
TIme flies so fast. Plus the year is about to end.

im kinda happy at where i stand ryt now. learned some lessons through out the years. I regret some stuff that i did and im happy for some things that i did.
but most of all im just happy that i know whos really down with me and my family would always be there to guild me through anything i would want to do.

i guess you win some and you lose some.

Can't help it from happening.

Was I a little to harsh?
Never really felt this sad in a while. I just realized I lost some friends because of my little pride GOOD JOB LIA!
Today made me think about what I did in the previous years.I just realized no one really trusted me because everything that came out my mouth was just bull or what you call shit talk. I know I just tell the truth but I guess all I did was make people feel low about their self esteem. Now its all coming back to me friends almost gone. I'm still happy that I still have my trusty girls MAY and FEBBY. I think those are the girls that would actually tell me face to face what's wrong with me but the others that actually say that their my friends are just playing with my emotions as I say.

ENOUGH WITH THIS.


Well this weekend the family went to Frisco. We needed to go there because it was Papi's last fitting for his teeth plus we had my sisters wisdom teeth checked because it was getting crooked again. We found out that there wisdom tooth on the lower left side was pretty messed up. If we don't get it removed within the amount of time her teeth is gonna be messed up plus it might lead to cancer. I asked my sister what kind of cancer is that gum cancer. She doesn't know either.
So the usual happen after that took some pictures. Went to some hot spots over there like Golden Gate Bridge, Fisherman's wharf and more. (probably going to put up the pictures tomorrow)
Afterwards we needed to go to the parents parties. The 1st party was a house blessing. It was our family friend Tito Andoy<- I know pretty weird name but it works. His house up there was pretty leet. Ate a lot that night their was hella lechon. Ate some shomai soo good with some kikoman. Met his son Lester. Not to lie he was pretty cute but he's just not god given with the height but it will. Plus my crush was there. Ekk why do I always like the tall, dark and bigger than me type of boy? Anyways after that party we went to Tito Oche's house it was his birthday I really thought we were going home after Tito Andoy's house but it was ok. Tito Oche's house was pretty intense some old lady was talking about her sex life so openly. Kinda grossed me out and at the same time pretty happy for her that she still gets some.

Sunday.
Got up really early so we could head up to Tito Kenneth's house for breakfast/lunch. Ah when we got to his house the
food was just super fantastic. I think there was chocolate, fried rice, dangit, red hot dog and some beef tapa. I haven't eaten those food in a long time. When I ate it i was like in heaven plus when I was eating crush came down from his room brought down his laptop and his controllers for the wii. He is so cute he was on his pj's. He could actually carry me. AHHHHHHHH!!
Well to continue I guess Tita Arlene's family is also going to the skiing trip in Mt. Charleston or Lake Tahoe but the most important part was Crush's family is also going. He told me he was going to teach me how to ski ahh major gaga for me.
Maybe when I fall down he can catch me. EKK gaga alert.
So we were beside each other with Nathan playing guitar hero we were hella talking about the wii. Then we talked about the super mario he had. So we started playing it and I totally sucked. Thats ok he was on my team so he made us win.


I know i'm going gaga for a not sure person.


I hella thought I got fat that weekend when I got home I actually lost weight.

So today I ditched last period because I couldn't take the head ache. Slept the whole day then at like 6ish May picked me up then brought Tita Dolly to work then headed up the gym with May and Febby.
May and I tried this class called Street Jam learned this totally new routine to kiss kiss by Chris Brown.
I totally suck but you know theirs always a 1st time for everything.

The favorite song of the moment:

Rainy Friday.

Well finally Friday.

Ekk i have to pack. I'm not even got ready we have to leave for San Francisco in an hour i guess. That's okay because mother and father aren't home yet.


Well its raining but its very cold....
I love the rain. Its better to go out when its raining.

Kuya said its not that cold there he said it was 70's over there just in case I'm still going to bring my coats.
LAYERING IS THE LONG WAY TO GO..

Just finished watching I pronounce Chuck and Larry. That movie is hilarious.

I'm kinda excited to get there I know what I'm going to be doing GUITAR HERO ALL THE WAY + of course Zelda.

Has yet to be titled.

Well found out I was a point from passing my proficiency which makes me more aggravated. One point!

Oh well!!
These couple of days have been weird like this week itself has been very stressful. All I have been doing is go to school then work then gym.
Plus the worst thing is last week I found one of my best buddies was talking shit about is behind my back. He's so stupid to tell Febby because we all know she would tell me.
I did meet her first. I don't know I can't believe he would talk shit about me after calling me his sister dang. I don't know why am affected maybe because I actually thought he would be different. I really thought he would be my best guy friend but I guess I was wrong.

Only one answer to that OH WELL WHAT CAN YOU DO TO PEOPLE LIKE THAT!


Today I went too second lunch it was pretty fun. Phuong told Febby that when ever me or Febby comes to that lunch it seems we pretty much have the attention to us. Well maybe because im a very good rapper I think Mark, Nalu and them shall agree.


Well the bi-curious thing is going to far now I think it should be called Lesbi-curious am i right or am i right.^_^
I don't know its like everybody is like getting into this thing weird....






Gym at 7 wow I can't believe I'm actually getting in to this.
Have to get skinny by February.
MAYBE?!?!?!?

fuck fuck fuck!!

daym i know its hella bad to say fuck but i think I'm about to go crazy!

Well today i found out that i didn't pass the proficiency by lets say 3 i got a 302...
I'm about to go crazy... i wanna scream my way out shit. i never been this depressed in what a long ass time!


CRAP!!!
well I'm at work right now trying not to think about it.

TONIGHT GYM with the girls...
run my ass just to forget this shit!