I'm really happy this year is about to end. I never thought it would be this crappy.You usually think positive about whats about to happen that year your getting in to. As the 1st days progressed within this year I became more disappointed. I thought it would be one for the books.
WOW! I can't believe a few weeks after the new year I would be single. I thought I wouldn't survive it because he was the first boy I actually told my parents about. It took me a few months to actually and truly move on. In order for me to move on I needed to boost my confidence by playing with some one's emotions which I thought I was really fucked up on my part. Realized I was wrong for using him and I actually lose some one who is a good listener and a very special person. Well life goes on.
After that had no date for prom both of the guys I liked were gone and needed to go on the last resort ETHAN. He was my date but I kinda felt awkward going with him to prom but oh well .As months progress found out that I couldn't graduate needed to do all my freshmen credits. Cried my ass off. Fucking Las Vegas. Let us thank my parents for making me feel good and actually gave me a ticket and actually visit the family and the friends back home.
Philippines was the best gift and the best vacation that my parents ever gave me even though it wasn't really worth it for them to give me that ticket. Had fun back home. Got drunk did the illegal and did more bad things. Philippines was where I took of some of the bad air out. People where just so different when I went back home. My brothers were more caring and we actually got drunk together, Those days that I was back home was the highlight of my year.
Went back to the States. Drove 2 days going to Chicago and 2 days going back to Vegas. School started. People thought I repeated school but you know FUCK THEM. You go to school for you not for them. OH WELL! As life goes on. Became closer to a few, lost connection with some and gained some more friends. As the school year progressed became closer to Febby. Told her all my shit. Had a crush on someone I know I can't have a crush on. Told my friend but then again people we need to understand some other people feel the need to tell everything on their boyfriend which I have to understand and I made a mistake by telling her. Now I know who are your real friends and who thinks they are the shit.
Now I'm just really happy that this year is about to end. Next year my new years resolution is to of course get smaller aside from that shallow resolution my other resolution is to find friends who are actually worth it and take care of the people who I love the most. Fuck drama fuck people who think they are just cool because of something people think is cool or because they are somewhere your not.
This year has been so intense. Lost some boys. Regretted a few. Thankful for blessings that came from above. Of course try to make next year the bombs of the bombs year ever. Take advantage of the opportunity that is out there. Hopefully no more drama but oh well I guess we just have to find out next year.
FUDGE i need to get my permit!
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